In 1982, when I was 16-years-old, I lost my dearest friend in the world, my father. He was torn from me by a particularly vicious type of brain tumor that robbed him of his vitality, dignity, and humor over the span of six months, before finally taking his life. This time of year is especially difficult because he passed away on May 18th. Although I have no pictures of him, over the last four decades I’ve had no difficulty keeping his spark alive in my heart and mind, and there’s not a day that goes by where I don’t think of him and all that he meant to me.
Musician and songwriter, Lindsey Stirling is no stranger to loss herself. In the last five years she’s lost her best friend, fellow musician and producer Jason Gaviati, and her father Stephen Stirling. The song Lose You Now was originally a track on her 2019 album Artemis under the title Guardian. She has now collaborated with singer-songwriter, Alex Seaver (Mako) to update it into something truly special and unique. I know many of you have suffered loss in your own lives and I hope Lose You Now touches your hearts like it did mine.
I wish I could remember every second we had
I know I tried to count ’em all one by one, one by one
But you don’t get ’em back, you don’t get ’em back
Take every memory we’ve ever had
Oh, I want to live ’em all one by one, one by oneAnd I swear that I’m not gonna lose you now
I’ll keep you in my life somehow
And even when the lights go down, down
I could never lose you now
And even though we’re not so close here
Maybe you could pick me up still
‘Cause I can’t stop falling down
I can’t stop falling down
And I’m not gonna lose you nowOh I can still remember all the lessons you gave me
I hope that I can live ‘em all one by one
Don’t you go looking back, there’s no looking back
And I don’t mean to open every picture I saved up
I’m only trying to visit with you one by one, one by oneAnd I swear that I’m not gonna lose you now
I need you in my life somehow
And even when the lights go down, down
I could never lose you now
Even though we’re not so close here
Maybe you could pick me up still
‘Cause I can’t stop falling down
I can’t stop falling down
And I’m not gonna lose you nowI’ll keep you in my life somehow
And even when the lights go down, down
I’m not gonna lose you now
I’m not gonna lose you now
Source: Musixmatch
Songwriters: Jason Evigan, Lindsey Stirling, Alexander Seaver, Taylor Robert Bird, Peter Anthony Hanna
That’s a powerful song, and she’s a great musician.
Sorry you have no photos of your dad. He left behind a legacy of a kind and caring daughter who loved him. Nobody could ask for more.
Best wishes, Pete.
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Thanks so much Pete.
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So sad, so beautiful.
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It is.
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Ok, I’m very sorry my friend. I’ve been down in the dumps today missing my mom, my best friend. No particular reason. Just is. Music always helps, somehow. Hugs to you.
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I’m sorry Cass. I hope this song helped. It’s sad, yet hopeful.
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It did help. This is gonna sound weird but after my cat passed, he gave me a few songs that I would hear in the middle of the night. The first one, I wasn’t familiar with, but I kept hearing this lady sing this line, “You’ll be in my heart.” The next day, I was at work, and I had a celtic playlist going. I told Oliie, “if you’re trying to tell me something, please let me know”. I walked out of the room, and a few minutes later, I came back in, and the song was playing! There were several other instances but that first sign was huge to me.
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Wow!
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Kim, that is a tough loss at any age, but sixteen is when you needed him most. Thanks for sharing this. Keith
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Thanks Keith. To be honest I don’t think I’ve ever quite gotten past it.
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Kim, I fully understand. Keith
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How beautifully sad ❤ I’m so sorry for your lost ❤ No matter how long ago we lose them, we don’t forget them. While it is lovely to have pictures of them, we don’t need them. They’re always in our hearts and never far from our minds ❤
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Thank you.
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That’s lovely Kim, he must have been a special Dad to have such a special daughter. 😘😘😘
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Thanks Fraggle. He was.
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Very sad yet beautiful. Memories are far better than photos. Best to you, Kim.
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Thanks Jennie.
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You’re welcome, Kim.
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I’m so sorry, Kim. That’s a beautiful song and a beautiful tribute to your dad.
No matter how old the wound, the loss never truly heals. I am right there with you. I lost my dad to colon cancer when I was 13. May 12th was his birthday. I treasure the memories I have of him, just as I know you do those of your father. Sending you a big virtual hug!
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I’m sorry Mae. Losing your father at that young age must have been horrible. Return hugs.
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I am sorry about your dad Kim. I lost mine to cancer two years ago and it’s still difficult.
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Thanks Sophie. I’m so sorry for your loss.😔
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I’m so sorry Kim, I miss my Dad every day too, I had him much longer than 16, but like you I had a wonderful Dad, we were lucky! Hugs, C
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Thanks Cheryl. I’m sorry for your loss as well. It’s never easy to lose a beloved parent, no matter how old we are. Thank goodness for the precious memories we can hold on to.
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Amazing song. I’m sorry for your loss. It never really gets easier does it?
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Thanks Vanessa. Over the years the pain dulls and it’s easier to focus on the positive memories, but the loss never goes away.
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I’m sorry to hear about your father, Lauren. The video left a lump in my throat.
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Sorry, I meant to say that I was sorry about your father, Kim.
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That’s okay. Thanks Mark.
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It’s sad yet hopeful.
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